Motto

“If you get caught up in the worst case scenario and it doesn’t happen, you’ve wasted your time. And if you are caught up in the worst case scenario and it does happen, you’ve lived it twice.” -Michael J. Fox

3.14.2018

Miss you buddy

Monday would have been Buster’s 7th birthday. 

On Sunday, the kids and I drove by the emergency vet clinic where we had him (and Koda back in 2014) put down back in November and I started silently crying in the car. I can still picture him laying down on the dog bed after the drugs stopped his heart with his head laying next to his right paw. I still remember the heaving sobs that took over my body after his heart stopped beating. I really, really miss him and yesterday was a tough day with birthday pictures of Buster almost every year in my "see your memories" feature on Facebook. I can't believe that he didn't even make it to his 7th birthday.

Now that we have had the cats for over a month, I think that I can safely say that I don't think that I will ever have as deep of a love/relationship with them as I did with our dogs. The cats are great and definitely much easier than a dog. I love that the kids LOVE the cats and LOVE to play with them. They love to help feed them every morning and night and Izzy loves when the cats (mostly Cocoa) jump on her bed in the morning. But it is definitely not the same. 

I am happy that they are part of the family and for now, they are filling a small part of the hole that Buster left wide open in November. But at some point in the future, I will be ready to open my heart for a new dog. It may not be for a few more years and we will have to find a dog that plays well with cats....but at some point I will need that deeper love and relationship with my family pet once again.

Miss you my big, cuddly furball.


3.07.2018

Day in the Life- Winter(ish) 2018

I don't think that there was a blogger who put together the Day in the Life quarterly post this time around, so I decided to do it myself since I always think that it is fun to go back and see how things have changed.

Day in the Life- Winter(ish) 2018
CP is 41 years old
NSC is 39 years old
Izzy is 4 years old
Wes is almost 20 months old
Marshmallow is 3 years old
Cocoa is 2 years old

I picked Friday, March 2nd because I kept forgetting to do it during the last two weeks of February- so really not for any particular reason!

3:29- I get up to pee, then fall back asleep.

4:39- CP grabs Cocoa and shoos him out of the room, then closes the door because he is waking us up. (We got the cats less than a month ago so we are still learning about each other.)

5:30- Alarm on my phone goes off. CP heads to the shower, I try to sleep more.

5:47- Cocoa comes in and starts purring and rubbing on me because CP left the door open. He gently bites my hand which is something new (and not okay because he has the longest teeth we have ever seen on a cat. CP joked the other day that if we died in the house Cocoa would definitely eat us.) I grab my phone to Google what to do when you cat bites you and find a few articles, but decide that it is too early to really read them. I get up to feed the cats and scoop out their litter boxes.

6:05- CP is out of the bathroom so I head in to wash my face, tweeze my eyebrows, put on deodorant and makeup, etc. I would usually shower but I showered yesterday afternoon after working out and got my hair colored and straightened last night, so I always like rocking the straight look the next day.

6:24- I hear CP go in and wake up Izzy. She is not happy about waking up, like most mornings. I get dressed and then go into Wes’ room to wake him up. He is amenable to getting up today and we do it without much fanfare while he looks at his “Brown bear, Brown Bear” book. I ask him some questions, and when he wants to respond yes he puts his chin down to his chest and nods his head (this is new and adorable). We head downstairs and Wes gets his morning milk.


Morning milk is the best

Izzy as Mickey


6:49- I grab both kids some Cheerios for the car since they are both asking for them. CP leaves. Wes says “bye” (a new word this week!). I get the kids into jackets and get annoyed at CP because Wes’ gloves from yesterday are not to be found. Today it was actually a fairly easy day to get the kids ready to leave the house.

7:01- I get the kids in the car and we are off to daycare. Izzy talks about the fact that she is happy that the sun is shining today. I point out a train which gets Wes smiling. Wes cries when I am unloading him out of the car because he wants his “choo choo” book (Thomas the train book) and I say no to bringing it inside. I drop Wes off first in his classroom, then Izzy to her classroom.

By 7:18 I am heading back home. I lock our car before heading in the house because there is a local homeless man who has been going into unlocked cars for the past few weeks looking for money (that’s a fun phone call from your neighbor when you are at work). He has been caught twice already on our street and has a court date coming up; hopefully the judge will order him to get some help (he is mentally ill). I heat up breakfast- a spinach and egg sandwich (4 pts) and read a Washington Post article about Jimmy Kimmel. I eat quickly, pack up my lunch and fill up my water bottle, say goodbye to the cats, and head out the door to walk to the train. On my way I drop off 10 postcards that I wrote for the Postcards to Voters group. I type up some notes on the day so far while on the train. I turn on the latest Pod Save America podcast episode.

Breakfast

Cocoa

Marshmallow


8:30- After my half mile walk to work (during which I successfully stopped myself from getting Starbucks because I knew that I could make coffee when I got into the office), I sit down and immediately a coworker from a different division comes over to gripe about another coworker (from a third division) we work with. We laugh for a few minutes before I get up to say hi to my boss in the office next to mine and talk to him briefly. I head to the bathroom and on the way back to my office fill up my coffee cup with water. The secretary is not in to make coffee today so I decide to make my own with Starbucks instant coffee and then to add the Weight Watchers 0 point mocha powered creamer. I am wary of trying it because I tried the pumpkin spice flavored one and it was TERRIBLE. I try my first sip and this is also terrible, but I decide to put a tablespoon of Coffee Mate Caramel flavor liquid creamer (2 pts) and it makes it drinkable. Usually I put in two tablespoons of the liquid creamer in so I just saved two points today!

My desk view




My boss' boss comes into the office and I ask how his flight from OH went last night because there was talk it would have been cancelled due to weather. My boss comes into the office and the three of us end up talking for about an hour on various things. I always have to be careful about what I say around my boss' boss because he is a Republican and part of our discussion gets into politics so I keep my mouth shut. I gulp down my lukewarm coffee afterwards and eat a banana (0 pts) while doing some work.

10:40- I head to the bathroom again and fill up my water bottle. I confuse two coworkers with my straight hair because they only see it on me a few times a year and as I walk I also notice that my abs and my thighs are sore from my T25 ab interval workout yesterday during lunch. Nice! I quickly check my email and click on an article in the Scary Mommy newsletter about how often people change bedsheets. I try to do it every two weeks, but certainly don't get to it every week. Wait you are supposed to vacuum your mattress too? Guess I'll be doing that the next time I change the sheets! One more thing to add to the list....

11- I jump on a call with a colleague; we are off by 11:30. I eat some raspberries and strawberries (0 pts) and do some work on weekly report due by 1pm. My boss leaves at 12pm as he is taking the afternoon off. 

Yum


12:45- Report is sent off and I heat up lunch- zucchini noodles with 1/4 cup of alfredo sauce and rotisserie chicken (no skin) on top (5 pts). It doesn't look great, but it tastes pretty good. I also eat some sugar snap peas (0 pts) while reading the Daily 202 newsletter from the Washington Post. 




Tastes better than it looks


The sun is shining so I decide to take a quick walk outside while listening to the last 15 minutes of Pod Save America podcast. Halfway through the walk I start a This American Life podcast from December titled "Becoming a Badger." I take some touristy photos of my 3000+ step walk. :-) 

Pritzker Pavilion




The bean!

Art Institute of Chicago


I wish I had not worn boots to take this walk though...

Love these boots but not a good walking choice


1:45- I'm back in the office and working on a regional report for a while. 

3:10- A coworker stops by to ask a question and he is a talker so it is never just a quick question. I glance over at 3:33 and realize that I am 3 minutes late to a conference call; luckily the third person on the call was even later than me. We put together a plan for a new project we are working on and get off by 4:15. I run to the bathroom (which I should have done before the call), check and answer a few emails and eat an apple (0 pts) before starting to pack up. I listen to the This American Life podcast on my walk to the train and throughout the ride while typing up notes on my day.

5:20- i get off the train and I hit 10,000 steps for the day. See a friend and his wife at the park and stop to talk for a minute. Keep walking home and arrive to utter chaos as CP is trying to make dinner. I quickly drop my stuff while Wes begs for a hug and to be picked up and as Izzy runs around. CP yells at Izzy as she runs through the kitchen while he is carrying boiling water. She runs to the stairs and gets upset so I talk to her about having her listening ears on and how she could have gotten really hurt with the water.

Read me this book

Playing with small objects


The chaos continues as I simultaneously try to set the table and deal with the kids while CP cooks. Dinner is served around 6pm and Izzy continues to not really listen, at one point talking a lot about Professor Poopy Pants (a neighbor gave us a Captain Underpants book and it is the coolest thing to talk about at school). I have a garden salad with Bolthouse Farms Salsa Avocado dressing (2 pts), Salmon (4 pts), broccoli (0 pts), and a cup of pasta (4 pts). Wes doesn't eat much of his pasta dinner but eats a ton of raspberries and a tangerine.


The kids like using chopsticks to eat dinner these days


After dinner I grab Izzy and corral her upstairs for a bath. I persuade her to have a quick bath so that she doesn't have to share the water with Wes.

How she likes to dry off these days


Hugs before Wes goes into his bath


After she gets out I brush her hair (which always elicits whining and crying) and we head downstairs because CP has promised Izzy a movie. Izzy insists on Olaf's Adventure which I have never heard of but she SWEARS I told her about the movie. ??? I check Hulu, Netflix, YouTube, but end up buying it on iTunes.

Izzy settling in for her movie

7:30- I'm free! I kiss the kids goodnight and run out of the house with my wine and all of the necessary Bunco items. I pick up a neighbor and we walk to another neighbor's house for the night. I put down my wine, say hi to the host, and then start to get the tables ready for the night putting down dice, the Bunco sheets, and pens. I get out my cowbell and let everyone know that we will start in a few minutes, but if anyone needs to learn the rules or a refresher that I will give a quick lesson.



8:10- We start the games and I start to drink some champagne (4 pts) while talking to my tablemates. Four glasses of champagne later I am too tempted by the snacks out on the different tables so I am eating peanut m&ms, sesame sticks, popcorn, etc. (??? pts- aka A LOT) Whoops.

10:40- The games are over and I figure out the winners of each category (aka not me tonight). There is one roll-off. I also get the next two months of hosts set up which is great! I clean up the tables and then stay to chat with friends while drinking a glass of red wine (4 pts).

12:35- Whoa. Didn't realize that it was so late so I get my coat and head home, walking with a friend. I drink some water before heading up to bed, where CP is currently snoring. SLEEP.

Steps for the day: 12,515 
Weight watchers points for the day: ????  It's too bad because I was doing so well until I started drinking....

2.21.2018

Weight Watchers lessons

I have been on the Weight Watchers program for over a month now and it has been rather eye opening. I would like to say that I have seen a lot of progress, but I have only lost 2.5 pounds so far. I will say that I am think that I am finally getting a hang of it, but I think that the learning curve would not have been as slow if I was going to weekly meetings instead of just doing the program online (it is less expensive that way).

LIQUIDS
I knew beforehand that I was ingesting too many calories via liquids and boy does this program make that SUPER CLEAR. The Starbucks Via packets of Cafe Mocha are 7 or 8 points which is almost a third of my daily points for the day! Uhhh no. I am now pairing black coffee with a 2 point flavored creamer which is still delicious and allows me to eat real food instead of air. Although if I was really eating air then maybe I would have lost more weight? 

I have essentially cut out all soda, even though a Coke Zero would be 0 points. We don't have it in the house at home anymore and I haven't been that tempted to get it when eating out, so that's been great. A definite plus. 

I have mostly been drinking water, coffee with creamer, and some tea for some caffeine. It has been a month or so of testing and trying new things to see what I like/don't like. Two things that I found I didn't like? The Weight Watchers flavor packets for coffee. It's too bad because they are only 1 point, but they were TERRIBLE. I also have decided that I don't like powder creamers, I only like the liquid ones. 

FOOD
Because I am doing the online program only, I also joined a local weight watchers FB group and the women in that group have been helpful in recommending different lower point foods in lieu of things that I had been eating. For instance, I have swapped out zucchini noodles for pasta and they have been great! Yesterday for lunch I ate sauteed zucchini noodles with rotisserie chicken on top and 1/4 cup of store-bought alfredo sauce- the whole lunch was only 4 points (it would have been less if I had used the rotisserie chicken breast but the kids ate it earlier in the week). Today I tried riced cauliflower in lieu of rice and it tasted great when I put a sauce on top. 

As I start to learn more about swaps and as I get better about bringing 0 point foods to snack on while I am at work, I hope to start to drop more weight. My go-to snacks tend to be sugar snap peas, apples, bananas, and grapes.

ACTIVITY
I could absolutely be doing better in this regard and it would help with increasing my weight loss. I don't know what is going on because the days are getting longer, but I am EXHAUSTED ALL THE TIME these days. Just thinking about getting up to work out at 5am while CP is in the shower makes me tired. Plus I still have my heel pain that won't seem to go away (which means no running). I MUST DO BETTER.

POINTS
Some people in the online community eat all of their daily points and then throughout the week eat all of their weekly points AND most/all of their fit points. So I have been doing that since people were saying that it was working. However, this week I have switched it up since I not losing that much and I will (hopefully) just be eating my weekly points. Fingers crossed it makes a difference!

I do think that I am steering the ship in the right direction after losing my way for a while. Come on weight loss!

2.15.2018

Guns

I'm fed up. Frankly, I was fed up long ago when Congress refused to do anything after Sandy Hook. I really thought that something was going to get done back in 2012 and yet Republicans bought off by the NRA sat on their hands and did nothing. So like many other people, I was pissed but resigned to the fact that this is our culture and there is nothing I can do about it.

That has continued for years now. More recently I have continued to be pissed off, but have been more inclined to DO SOMETHING. I contacted my elected officials after Las Vegas to urge them to take up a ban on bump stocks- nothing has happened. This past week I got a text for a movie viewing and then discussion but unfortunately CP has something that night so I can't go. Then last night, after the horrific shooting in FL, I saw a post on a local Mom's Facebook group that I belong to for Moms Demand Action (part of Everytown), looked up if there were any events in my area and sure enough, there is a meeting next Thursday night of a local chapter. I put out a call on Facebook for friends to join me and as of right now, I have three other women joining me.

There is also a march in downtown Chicago being put on by Indivisible on Sunday that I hope to attend in order to show more support for our elected officials to DO SOMETHING. I'm hoping CP is willing to take the kids for a few hours while I go to the march.

FUCK THE NRA. It's time to fucking DO SOMETHING and you know what? Women are going to lead the charge and I am going to help to get something done.

Do you want to DO SOMETHING too? 

1. Call your elected officials to tell them they need to pass some legislation. 
2. Visit the Moms Demand Action link above to find a group in your area.
3. Do some Google searching to see if there will be a march this weekend in your area around gun legislation.

Groups like Everytown are making a difference in states around the country. I truly believe that now is the time to get involved and get riled up about this issue. Voting in November for elected officials that support gun regulations is KEY.

19 months

19 months





Height- He was 2' 9" (65%) on February 1st.

Weight- 30 pounds (97%) on February 1st.

Diapers- Size 5 diapers during the day, Size 6 nighttime diapers. He sometimes wets through his Size 6 so we try to give him some time to pee out his dinner milk before putting him to bed.

My cutie Valentine


Milestones- Wes climbs up the stairs using the banister these days. His climbing skills for getting up on beds, chairs, and couches are also getting much better. Lately Wes has been pointing at various things and I will say the color, but I don't think that he is close to saying them on his own.

Wes has also started to perfect his pouty face. It's pretty amazing.

Mr. Pout

Language- Words so far- mama, uh oh, choo choo, duck, malk (milk), more, nana (banana), down, and ball...along with tons of animal noises. New words this month- shoe, Elmo, owl, no, book, moon, ranj (orange), boo (blue), iz-she (Izzy), and finally dada. He also quickly caught on to Cocoa's name...I think that it will take a while for him to say Marshmallow's name. I would bet that he is pretty close to a word explosion soon with all of his new words this month.

As far as sign language goes, Wes uses the following signs: all done, more, eat, help, milk, and thank you- a lot of times he will say either more or milk while he does the sign.

Bad hair day


Favorite Toy- His bean bag from Christmas. Izzy and Wes have nightly "races" and run from the kitchen to the family room to then jump on their bean bags. It's pretty funny (and clearly shows that they have extra energy because it is too cold to go outside!).

Enjoying our big snowstorm


Favorite Book- Brown Bear, Brown Bear is still a big favorite. He likes to make a lot of the animal noises.

Sleep- Wes is a great sleeper from about 7:30pm to 7 or 8am. He is down to one nap a day, generally starting around 12:30 and lasting for about two hours.

Sledding!


Clothes- Solidly in 2T clothing. Size 7 shoes.

Eating- Wes continues to throw things at us (food, utensils, etc) as soon as he is done with his meal. The phase is lasting longer that we would like (although he has a great arm). Some meals he decides to only eat fruit, some meals he puts down a ridiculous amount of food (it usually involves pasta).

Trying on Izzy's swim goggles


Teeth- No new teeth this past month.

Illness- An ear infection. It looks like one of his ear tubes is trying to escape- we'll find out next week at the follow up with his ENT doctor. I really don't want him to have the surgery again, but it's been nice to not have him on any oral antibiotics for a while (even though he is excellent at taking medicine and very willing to do so).

Misc- This month was the first time Wes was on an airplane and in CA. It was his first visit to Disneyland. The first time Wes pet a goat.



So far Wes has been great with the cats. He has been giving them gentle pets and gets excited in the morning if they are outside his room when I wake him up for school.