-Last week CP traveled to New Orleans. This week he is in Puerto Rico. Next week he is in North Carolina. I keep trying to tell myself that it is probably best that he is traveling while I am still pregnant and hopefully it cuts down on the travel that he has after the baby is born (at least in the beginning), but there is no guarantee.
-For over a week now I have been limping around. I have some unexplained pain on the top of my left foot. It's not red or swollen so after emailing my OB, she wasn't concerned about it being pregnancy-related, but despite me icing it every day, sometimes multiple times a day, the pain is still there. Google searching hasn't come up with anything specific so maybe I will try to get to my primary care physician tomorrow to see if it is anything important? I'm sure the extra weight of being pregnant is not helping matters, but I am wearing sneakers every day at work (switching to appropriate shoes when I have an important meeting) and walking slowly from the train to my office. I also often have an extra 35 pounds on me as Izzy is asking to be picked up so much these days....
-This past weekend we had a crawfish boil party, mainly to celebrate CP's 40th birthday two weeks before. It was 93 degrees out so I basically sweat the entire day. While we were getting ready for the party I was outside squatting down to pick something up (quite a chore these days) and heard a "riiiiiiiiippp." Sure enough I split my maternity capri pants. That was quite the ego booster.
-After today is over I only have 11 days left of work. I hate to say it but between my problem employee (who is quite a problem these days), and things not going so well (but out of my control) on a project, I am looking forward to the three months away.
-Izzy has hit the "why" stage in that every.single.question. out of her mouth is "why?" I know that it is a specific stage of development and that it is good that she is so curious but I run out of answers pretty quickly.
-I feel terrible that during the week, my interaction with Izzy is more rushed and trying to hurry her- whether it is to get dressed, to go to the bathroom, to get in the car, to sit down to dinner, to brush her teeth, etc. I wish that there was more time in general to relax with her during the week- I just feel like we are not having any "fun" during the week (especially with CP gone). I know that I should be savoring these last few weeks with her as only one kid but solo parenting makes it 10 times more difficult and I have less patience these days.
Mostly I just feel rushed and not ready to have two kids yet. On the other hand, I am ready to not be pregnant anymore. July 15th is going to come very quickly....
5 comments:
I'm sorry you're dealing with these frustrations. It's difficult enough without having to add pregnancy into the mix.
Yes to having your PCP look at your foot. I knew someone who fractured her foot just before she delivered, but didn't actually diagnosis it until she was post partum (and the nurses were watching her).
Patience is hard, especially when you're in a hurry. Part of it is being aware, which you already are. But the other part is being willing to forgive yourself when they are slow. We are learning too.
Finally, is there any way to have a frank talk with CP about traveling? Because, honestly, you're going to be getting more than double the work with childcare here very soon. It's likely he'll be frustrated, but there's got to be a compromise he can work out with his employer for reducing the amount he is traveling. You will all need it (trust me on this one) as adding another child will be a new transition.
Lady, I think ALL your annoyed and stressed feelings are completely normal and legit. Is it awesome? No. Is it cute? Eh, prolly not. Is it real? Absolutely.
Hang in there,
xox
Ugh, I can't even imagine, because I am annoyed and grumpy all the time and I am far less pregnant than you AND I don't have a toddler to deal with as well. I still have 6 weeks left and I'm already feeling like I should be working from home every day and/or get the entire month off before I give birth!!
I can't imagine being that pregnant and being the only parent around. I hope the trips slow down so you get a break! That foot pain sounds awful- feel better soon!
Grrr to all of it! Feel better soon! I hope you feel rejuvenated after the long weekend.
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