Motto

“If you get caught up in the worst case scenario and it doesn’t happen, you’ve wasted your time. And if you are caught up in the worst case scenario and it does happen, you’ve lived it twice.” -Michael J. Fox

10.22.2015

Big fat negative

Well, to no one's shock or surprise, my beta came back as less than 1. I still had a tiny bit of hope this morning but this afternoon when I went to the bathroom I saw blood on the toilet paper and knew it was over.

My appointment with my doctor is not until next Friday but there is a possibility that I could still cycle anyway even with my period starting full flow tomorrow. I'm going to head home tonight and take inventory of all of the medication that I have at home and email the nurse. She is going to try to talk to my doctor tomorrow to discuss the protocol. I mentioned that I didn't want to do birth control again because I believe I was over-suppressed but mentioned that I have Lupron at home (leftover from the FET this spring).

So hopefully I don't have to wait an entire month to start cycling again. We'll see.

8 comments:

Gypsy Mama said...

So sorry for the BFN. I hope you can start cycling again ASAP and that you get your BFP

Aramis said...

Well shit.

jAllen said...

Even when you know the likely outcome, it still sucks when it's made official. I hope you can cycle soon!

Anonymous said...

:( It sucks. I am sorry.

Amber said...

Dang. I'm sorry. Even when you pretty much know it didn't work, it's always still a disappointment to have it confirmed. Hope you are able to jump right back in for another cycle this month. Wishing you the best of luck!

Jess said...

Ugh. Sorry this cycle was a bust. Fingers crossed you can get going on the next one ASAP!

Breathe Gently said...

I am so sorry. Bad news just keeps following us. :( Sending hugs and virtual wine. xx

Alice said...

Ugh. I'm sorry. It's nuts how even when you've prepared yourself for a negative, it's still disappointing.