So this weekend at a family party, CP and I were showing pictures of our new place to everyone. We had finished showing the three bedrooms and CP’s dad says, “So where is the nursery?” Not wanting to tip our hand that we are trying for a baby, I said that we don’t have one yet. I basically lied because the other bedroom on the second floor of the new house will start off as the office, but as soon as we get pregnant, will turn into a nursery. (CP has this funny idea that even after we have a baby he will continue to work there instead of having to move the office down to the basement. RIGHT. Silly boy.)
Other than the comment from my father-in-law on Saturday, no one asked about kids. (I also made sure to have two beers while we were at the party less anyone thought that my weight gain since the wedding/Christmas was because I was carrying a kid. Nope, just from eating crap. Sigh)
So last night I was having a dream where I was walking around with my mom and two friends from college (who both have two kids). They were asking me something and I let it slip that we were trying for a baby. Immediately, I backtracked and stuttered out something….then moved on to a new topic. My backtracking was enough to keep them from asking any more questions, but at that point I think that they were a bit suspicious. I then realized that in my dream we were looking for a bathroom. Sure enough at 3am, I woke up and had to go to the bathroom.
Things that I learned from last night:
1. Even in my dreams I can’t keep a secret!!! Gah this is difficult!
2. When I am pregnant I am going to have to go to the bathroom ALL.THE.TIME. I already get up around 2 or 3am every single night (even if I don’t drink anything past 5pm)….when a baby is pressed on my bladder I will have no chance. I AM SO SCREWED.
But really, this secret is killing me! I can only talk about it with CP and you guys. I HATE that I can’t talk to my girl friends about it. About their experiences. I know WHY we are doing it, but it is difficult with my personality. I want to talk things out with friends. I want to know other’s experiences. And it is SO DIFFICULT to not tell my mom because I am really close with her.
Here’s hoping we get preggers soon or else this secret is going to slip out whether CP likes it or not…..
8 comments:
i'm so sorry you are having to keep this a secret..that is SO hard when you are not a secretive person! you know, though, you'll look back on it all and laugh!
Wow - you will be in for some peeing adventures when you do get pregnant!
Yep, you're screwed. I was up once a night before I was pregnant and it's been at least twice a night my whole pregnancy so far, sometimes even 4 times a night.
I'm horrible at keeping big news on the down low too, so I feel your pain. I get so excited and I want to share it with the world! I hope it at least helps that you can share with us...your internet friends :)
I'm a really open person who doesn't keep secrets very well. But, trying to get pregnant was one that was easy to keep quiet. Because, in my heart, I firmly believed it was no one else's business and I didn't want their input/advice/pressure during our journey. I don't think there's a right and wrong answer to this, though. Each couple has to decide what's right for them. And even when they make one decision, it's ok to change course if they decide that decision isn't working for them.
It is a tough secret, you want to scream it from the hills. But each couple has its own right to make that decision.
Just take a deep breath and try to let the comments slide off your back. When you have something to share you will know
Special secrets like this keep you closer to CP though. I believe that.
ha i can totally relate to the bladder issue. mine is already out of control, i'm terrified to have children!!
good luck with that secret, i'm impressed..i would've told already!
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