I hate losing

Earlier this week I went to the ear, nose and throat doctor to see why the test results for my middle ear were so different from the rest of my hearing results. Well, it turns out that my middle ear is fine and the woman just read the test results incorrectly. Thanks for needlessly making me worry and use some of my sick time to go to an appointment lady! The doctor did say that maybe I have a “listening” problem and that is why I have to ask people to repeat things so often. CP just laughed after I told him….and then promptly agreed with the doctor’s assessment. Grrrrr.

The doctor couldn’t explain why I had ear pain or why things sound muffled because my ear pressure was normal. He mentioned that it could possibly be my body adjusting from the move from the west coast, but that doesn’t make much sense to me since it was seven months ago! Overall, good news that there is nothing wrong with my ears.

However, last night the trainer had CP and I try to run a 10 minute mile again on the treadmill. Once again, I missed making it by .04 of a mile (to be fair, in the last minute the trainer had me slow down because she wanted me to be able to do the exercises that she had planned later on), while CP made it this time (jerk). While his heart rate went down 10 points, my heart rate was still high at 178. Is this something I should be worried about? The trainer seems to want to watch that number and is confused as to why mine did not go down at all.

Oh and boys suck. CP has already lost 4 pounds and has now moved to a tighter belt hole. He did concede that the belt was 10 years old and it probably stretches, but still. I know that I shouldn’t compare myself, my weight loss, etc. to his, but that is virtually impossible with my competitive nature.