Motto

“If you get caught up in the worst case scenario and it doesn’t happen, you’ve wasted your time. And if you are caught up in the worst case scenario and it does happen, you’ve lived it twice.” -Michael J. Fox

8.17.2016

Birth Story/Hospital Stay Part 1


Day before C-section (7/14/16)

Remember when I wrote that I felt totally unprepared for a baby? Well after finishing up work I then rushed around the house cleaning a bit, putting together the pack n play, and washing some more clothes. Just doing that really helped me feel a bit better about Wes' arrival the next day. We decided to go out to dinner and ice cream as our last night as a family of three; unfortunately Izzy drank way too much water at dinner and peed her car seat heading home for the first time (great timing!). After she went to bed I headed to Target to buy diapers and pack n play sheets. I also packed my hospital bag, wrote an email to my mom about Izzy's schedule and we finally hit the sheets at midnight.

C-section day (7/15/16)

CP and I were up early and both helped Izzy to get ready for school. We asked her what she wanted to name her baby brother- her answer "poopy butt!" (Her go-to answer these days.) As we headed into the hospital, we were even more relaxed than last time. We arrived to find that the OR was running behind and we would have to wait. No biggie but I'm certainly glad that this didn't happen with Izzy!

Once I am in the OR the numbing agent hurt more than I remember but the spinal block quickly flooded my legs. I got nauseous quickly- just like last time- but knew it would happen and the doctors were quick to push medicine to make me feel better into my iv. The surgery started around 10:20 and CP came into the room.

Wesley was born at 11:10am weighing 8 pounds 3 ounces- same as Izzy! But instead of her beautiful cry, he made more of a gurgling sound and had to be suctioned A LOT. I started crying in relief once he was out. Finally CP got to hold him and Wes gurgled/cried most of the time. Unlike last time when the anesthesiologist made conversation to keep my anxiety down, the anesthesiologist this time was silent and boring.

With Izzy the fast part was getting her out and the longer part of the surgery was stitching me back up. Just getting Wes out took the doctors almost an hour and it would take them over an hour more to get me closed up. I had lots of scar tissue from the previous c-section that my doctors had to remove, along with bladder adhesions (my doctor didn't touch these because it would just come back with this surgery anyway) and lots of blood loss. Because of the scar tissue from the first c-section, my doctor decided that she needed to cut a different, thicker part of my uterus for the surgery so that is part of the reason the surgery took so long- it required the doctors cutting through more layers and stitching back up more layers. Towards the end of the surgery, I definitely started to feel more of what they were doing but kept thinking that it would be over soon so I didn't say anything.

Over two hours later, surgery was finally over. I didn't have as much teeth chattering and shaking as with Izzy which was a nice change. Before I was wheeled out of the room, my doctor came over and told me that the surgery "was complicated." I was then moved to the recovery room where my parents could come in to meet Wes! He was sleepy after all of that crying in the OR so he wasn't really interested in nursing. My sister and brother in law were able to get a few pictures with Wes before he was put under the warming lamp because his temperature was a bit low. I had to kick my sister and BIL out after a while because I was exhausted from a tough surgery. My doctor also had to give me a medication in my butt because I think that they were worried about my bleeding? (It's a little hazy now) Finally Wes went to get cleaned up in the nursery and I headed up to my room.

Unfortunately, the NICU team came in with Wes quickly to tell us that his oxygen levels were low so they were going to run some tests. He got an Xray to see if he had fluid in his lungs which was negative. Since Wes wasn't around to breastfeed I asked for a breast pump and surprisingly, I was able to pump 10 ml the first time! I then start to pump every three hours to try to get my milk to come in as soon as possible. I also got compression boots to try to manage the fluid in my legs (and to prevent blood clots).


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That afternoon my parents stopped by with Izzy and she looked sad and confused that when she came into the room. "Why you in bed Mommy?" Her mood quickly turned around when we told her that she had gifts from her baby brother Wes. Siblings with all of their vaccinations are allowed into the NICU so CP took Izzy down to meet Wes. I guess she held his hand and sang him "Happy Birthday." (I so wish I had seen this). After about five minutes she was bored.

That night I wanted to see Wes, so a day earlier than usual, I got out of bed and into a wheelchair in order to head down to the NICU around 8pm. I got some skin to skin time and Wes curled up on me. Unfortunately, his breathing was rather rapid the entire time- it was obvious that he was working very hard. His O2 (oxygen) level started at 60% (you want it as close to 100% as possible) when he got to the NICU and had decreased to 43% despite Wes being on a cannula (the tube up his nose). He also had a feeding tube down his nose since they didn't want to give him bottles or boobs while he was working so hard to breathe.


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Finally at 10pm I was exhausted and headed upstairs. Every three hours I would wake up CP to get the pump supplies ready, pump, then have CP clean the parts, call the nurses station to have them take the milk down to the NICU (at this point I had very little), then go back to sleep. This repeated all night long.

To be continued...

8.16.2016

One Month Old

Wes turned one month old yesterday!


Height: 21.5 inches (at his three week appointment)

Weight: 9 pounds 11.7 ounces (at his three week appointment)


Heading home from the hospital




Nickname: Tooters (because he farts a lot), Buddy (although I need to stop using this because I also use that name with Buster), Monkey

Milestones: Like Izzy, Wes had fairly good neck control from the beginning. I guess in utero they must do some neck exercises? :-) In the past week or so he has started to grab things (tshirts, CP's chest hair). He is a bit more alert these days, but is still sleeping quite a bit. He doesn't mind tummy time that much but sometimes gets lazy about turning his head.

Meeting Buster for the first time and getting his requisite first lick


Eating: Wes is a champion breastfeeder despite having both a tongue tie AND a lip tie. From the first time I was allowed to put him to my breast while he was in the NICU he had a good latch and most importantly, didn't fall asleep like Izzy did and we haven't had to break out the nipple shield! Frankly, it was really nice to not have any issues with eating. He also has no problem with bottles which will make his start in daycare much easier. Right now he generally just feeds on one side every two to three hours except at night when I don't have as much milk- usually that is a both sides boob affair. Last week we went to the dentist to get his tongue tie and lip tie lasered which did not please Wes. But he seems to be recovering nicely and hopefully it makes a difference in his suction soon. 


Contemplating life's biggest mysteries


Diapers: Wes started off in newborn but moved to size 1 around 3 weeks old (could have moved earlier but I was trying to use up the smaller diapers that I had).

Clothes: Has been in newborn or 0-3 month clothes all of this month but will be wearing 3-6 month clothes starting today. He is gaining weight really quickly!





Sleep: I wish that this was going a bit better. I generally am able to go to bed between 10:30 and 12 after some cluster feeding. He is definitely not on a schedule but tends to wake me up two to three hours later. One night he went four hours and my boobs leaked and I felt super refreshed (totally worth it)! A couple of days around the three week mark were really rough as Wes would get up around 2am and be up, cluster feeding and generally awake until 5am. Talk about a rough next day!! Most of the time we are able to take a nap together later in the day. CP has been great about letting me sleep in on the weekends after Izzy gets up as he knows that I am not getting much sleep at night (because I don't need much help keeping Izzy awake at night for feeds CP has been getting more sleep at night- lucky duck!).




Likes: Snuggling in our arms, sleeping on us, nursing, taking walks outside

Dislikes: Diaper changes, baths, when we first put him in the car seat or a lot of time when we are driving. 

Illnesses: Thankfully nothing so far. Stay healthy big guy!

Overall, Wes is acting very similar to Izzy when she was a month old. I hope he starts to sleep a bit more at night, but otherwise he is great! Izzy has been a great big sister so far being very patient if we are busy with Wes. We are trying to give her lots of one-on-one time (usually with CP because I need to be around to feed Wes) and fun activities. She has enjoyed all of the grandparents being around as well as the random presents from family and friends.

8.15.2016

Microblog Mondays: Bad Moms




When the trailers started a few months ago for the movie Bad Moms, I knew that it was a movie that I needed to see. However, it was coming out only two weeks after Wes was scheduled to be born so I wondered whether I would be able to see it.

Thankfully three neighbors of mine were going to see it on Saturday night and invited me. Being the awesome husband that he is, CP agreed to watch both kids so that I could go to the movie- provided there was enough milk in the fridge for Wes.

Going out to see a movie- something that I haven't done since I lived in CT over 4 years ago (!!)- was such a nice mental break from being at home. I was able to enjoy a nice glass of wine and tons of laughter as the movie was FANTASTIC. I was so happy that I didn't waste my time with a stupid movie or one that blew all of the funny jokes on the trailer. When I got home, CP let me know that he had an easy time putting Izzy to bed and Wes literally slept the entire time I was away. Good job kids!



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8.11.2016

Third trimester recap

Overall, I do think that my third trimester with Wesley was easier than my third trimester with Izzy. Or, it is possible that I simply didn't have the time to dwell on every ache and pain because I was a card-carrying member of the "Just F*cking Do It" club. :-)

So, starting at the beginning of the third trimester I was dealing with some oh-so-fun sciatica pain. It stuck around for the rest of the pregnancy, but after a while it would come and go instead of being a constant pain. I also found what seemed to be a scab on my areola on my right breast. My OB wasn't concerned and thought that it could just be a skin tag that will go away after I gave birth (so far it is still there). I also found a skin tag near my arm pit- it also hasn't gone away.

Other issues around the same time included pain in my left thumb from the nurse hitting a nerve instead of my vein when putting my IV in at labor & delivery. That pain stuck around for a few weeks but eventually went away. I started to dread going to bed around this time as well because I just knew that I wasn't going to get a good sleep. Most of the time when I would wake up after sleeping on my right side my right hand would be puffy and asleep. I also started to have fluid buildup in my ankles and feet which would go away a bit by the morning but I couldn't wear a lot of my shoes from this point on in the pregnancy.

Once I got closer to 33 weeks the veins in my boobs popped out which I took to be a good sign of my milk getting ready. I would frequently wake up drooling which is something I *never* do normally- thanks extra saliva during pregnancy! I also had one night where I freaked out until Wes moved because I fell asleep on my back for two hours.

A week later I did something to my foot. Buster stepped on it but he steps on my feet a lot so my feet should be used to it. I limped around for a good few weeks, trying to ice as much as possible, and finally going to the doctor where they determined that it wasn't broken. I randomly tried my engagement ring on- surprisingly it still fit but I ended up taking it off later that day because it got too tight after wearing it around in the heat.

34 weeks was around the time that I started to feel Wes hiccuping.

Sadly at 37 weeks I found my third hemorrhoid and I started to get red/brown freckles/marks on my belly (something I also got with Izzy). I had tons of Braxton Hicks contractions the few days leading up to the c-section and my red stretch marks from my previous pregnancy on my belly became very pronounced. Sleep could have been worse- I was only waking up 2-3 times a night to pee and although I swore by the snoogle last time, I didn't use it at all this pregnancy! I definitely had sore hips and had to turnover a bunch of times per night but not having to turn over every hour definitely made for better sleep.

Finally, the front of my chest/my cleavage had raised red/brown almost open sores/zits from some seriously dry skin. Unfortunately I still have them despite putting lotion on my chest all the time. Hopefully they go away soon.

So overall? Another good pregnancy....but I am glad that I don't have to do it again.

Next up? Wesley's birth story which was not quite as easy as Izzy's.....

8.08.2016

Third trimester bump photos

27 weeks with an Izzy photobomb

28 weeks

29 weeks
 Then I forgot to take a picture two weeks in a row- whoops!

32 weeks- my belly looks pointy!

33 weeks

34 weeks and a Buster photobomb

35 weeks
Argh! I kept meaning to take my 36 weeker and never got around to it!


37 weeks

And finally, my last belly shot.

38 weeks

8.07.2016

Current situation

It's 4:40 and I'm exhausted. Wesley nursed around 7pm, then promptly passed out on CP the rest of the night. We finally woke him up at 10:30 to change his diaper and eat; unfortunately he was then up and either crying or eating until a little past 1am. Buster nudged us around 3am or so, panting, because he probably ate something funny in the backyard earlier. Wes is up to eat again a little after 4am and I do my best to try to stay awake. He sems full and sleepy so let's hope he doesn't put up a fuss going back to sleep as this mama needs some rest!!

More blogspots to come now that my MIL has gone home after two weeks here....

****Update: Wow. Sleep deprivation is real yo. The takeaway from this post? I am exhausted and should have reread it before posting it. LOL. Hopefully future posts will make more sense. :-)  *****