The nurse called while I was in Izzy's 15 month appointment so I didn't get to ask as many questions I would have liked, but she didn't have any good news. I was actually a day off so I'm supposedly 6 weeks along. By now they should have seen a yolk sac, not just the gestational sac. Not to mention measuring almost a week behind where I should be. In addition, they tested my Hcg level and it was only 2000- it should be around 6000 by now.
I asked for a percentage of how many pregnancies like mine turn around which she wouldn't give me (I assume because the number is basically 0). If I don't start bleeding before then I will likely have another ultrasound on Weds which will just affirm that this is not a viable pregnancy.
Not so shocked with this news but definitely heartbroken for so many reasons. I'm trying to hold off really thinking about it/crying too much until Izzy goes to bed. I was supposed to go to my monthly Bunco night tonight but I don't feel up to socializing with women that all have at least two kids and (as far as I know) no fertility problems.
Tonight I am especially thankful of Izzy in my life. She truly is a miracle.
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Well shit. I am so sorry! Hugs to you, my friend. This just sucks and I am so sorry.
Oh NSC. I'm so heartbroken for you. I was really hoping for good news, even after your post earlier today. I wish I could give you a hug and make you dinner.
Abiding with you during this devastating time.
Oh damn damn damn. I am so sorry :( sending thoughts your way.
I'm so sorry girlfriend. I was thinking about you this afternoon... sending more positive thoughts your way this weekend as you process this and figure out what to do next
I'm so sorry girlfriend. I was thinking about you this afternoon... sending more positive thoughts your way this weekend as you process this and figure out what to do next
Dammit. I was really hoping they'd have something better to say. So sorry you have to go through this.
I'm so sorry. I remember very well getting similar news. It broke my heart in ways I didn't imagine possible. Thinking of you tonight.
I'm so sorry girl. I'm new to your blog but I just wanted to send you my prayers.
This sucks. I read your post earlier today and was hopeful that you'd get good news. I'm so sorry it turned out this way. Life is so, so unfair sometimes. I'll be thinking of you xo
Ah, suck. I'm so very sorry. Sending light and love your way.
So sorry to hear this news. My heart is breaking for you.
I am so sorry. Thinking of you....
Oh no! I'm so sorry, that just sucks. I'll be thinking of you and praying for you over the next few weeks.
This is terrible news! In so very sorry. I'm hoping for some kind of a miracle here. It seems early to tell, but they probably know best. With my first pregnancy my re couldn't find a yolk sac or fetal pile and I had to wait two weeks for after 7 weeks and go to the perinatologists withy their fancy ultrasound equipment to see it. I am hoping they just missed something. Cmon miracle!
Damn it. I am so sorry. I'm hoping for a miracle and sending lots of hugs.
Thinking of you and sending lots of love.
Oh no. I'm so sorry. Give Izzy an extra hug - but of course that doesn't take away the pain over this loss. Thinking of you.
F*ck. I'm so so sorry.
I'm so sorry. Truly awful news. Im so thankful you have Izzy too. But I know that doesn't help your disappointment right now. Hugs!
Oh I'm so sorry. When I had my chemical pregnancy it was just awful. I know having my daughter made the loss easier, but it still sucks so bad. Fingers crossed that the embryo catches up.
My heart is breaking for you :(
I'm so sorry...
Sending my love. This is so, so hard. You are strong, and all of your feelings are so very valid. Be in this now ... Thinking of you as you navigate through this week.
I'm just seeing this... I'm so very sorry! This really sucks. Thinking of you. xo
I'm sorry I'm just seeing this now... I am so, so sorry. My heart just breaks for you. Thinking of you as you wait through this awful time.
I am so incredibly sorry that you're going through this.
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