Non Sequitur Chica: Not good news

3.06.2015

Not good news

I'm not going to sugar coat my ultrasound appointment today. The ultrasound technician was fairly quiet today, but I could tell that the appointment wasn't going well. After I got dressed I watched over her shoulder as she typed notes into their system- they only found the gestational sac. No yolk sac detected on scan. Currently the sac is measuring 5w2d which is 4 days behind (today I am 5w6d). In contrast with Izzy at my first ultrasound the technician found the gestational sac, yolk sac, fetal pole, and heartbeat- and this was at 5w5d.

I haven't had confidence in this pregnancy from the start. I certainly don't have confidence in this pregnancy now. Hopefully the nurse calls soon so that I can ask her the chances of this pregnancy being a viable one.

F*ck.

16 comments:

Heather said...: Oh, I'm so sorry. Crossing my fingers you hear from the nurse soon & keeping you in my thoughts.; March 6, 2015 at 1:47 PM
JenS said...: Oh no. I'm so sorry. Hoping he/she is just a late bloomer.; March 6, 2015 at 1:54 PM
Unknown said...: I will keep you in my prayers!; March 6, 2015 at 1:57 PM
Gypsy Mama said...: Oh no, I'm so sorry... I'm thinking about you friend; March 6, 2015 at 2:15 PM
L said...: Just started following a few weeks ago, so sorry. Thinking of you and wish this didn't have to be so hard...; March 6, 2015 at 2:20 PM
Cristy said...: I'm so sorry. Abiding with you during this time.; March 6, 2015 at 2:31 PM
Jessah @ Dreaming of Dimples said...: Oh no!!!! I hate this for you. Hoping there's still a chance and your nurse calls soon.; March 6, 2015 at 2:36 PM
Gypsy Mama said...: Oh no, I'm so sorry... I'm thinking about you friend; March 6, 2015 at 2:41 PM
Just T said...: Well crap! I am so sorry :(; March 6, 2015 at 2:48 PM
Anonymous said...: I'm so very, very sorry.; March 6, 2015 at 2:57 PM
JustMe said...: Ok, I don't want to give you false hope because I know that can be brutal, but when I went in 5w5d (exactly....I just looked back at my blog to check), there was only a sac, no yolk sac, no pole, nothing. A week later...all there. So there is a chance?; March 6, 2015 at 2:58 PM
JustHeather said...: *hugs* i hope there is still a chance and that it us just too early still.; March 6, 2015 at 3:01 PM
Anonymous said...: I'm sorry, friend. That really sucks.; March 6, 2015 at 3:16 PM
Breathe Gently said...: I have everything crossed over here. Early scans are notorious for being off, and frosties can be late implanters. x; March 6, 2015 at 4:30 PM
Aramis said...: Shiiiiiiiiiiiiit. I'm so sorry. I'm really hoping you're just dealing with a slow growing frosty, but it's tough to be in this situation. Hugs, friend.; March 6, 2015 at 4:42 PM
ADSchill said...: I'm so sorry this ultrasound was a let down. I will pray for a miracle, but know that we are behind you should this not work out.; March 6, 2015 at 5:56 PM

Infertility Timeline

Trying for Baby #1

May 2010- Stop taking birth control. Figure that it might take 6-10 months to get pregnant. Do not tell friends or family that we are going to start trying to get pregnant.

October 2010- I start charting and taking my temperature every day.

February 2011- Nine months into trying to conceive with no results, I head to my GYN and discuss our next steps.

March 2011- I have a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) test which came up negative for any problems.

April 2011- CP has a sperm analysis which indicates a lower percentage of "good sperm" than normal.

May 2011- CP heads to the urologist where they don't find anything and has another sperm analysis which indicates an even lower percentage of "good sperm". After a year of trying we are officially infertile.

August 2011- We have our first meeting with a fertility doctor and SURPRISE I have a big fibroid in my uterus. At the end of the month I was injected with a three-month shot of Lupron to shut down my ovaries/drop my estrogen levels to shrink the fibroid before surgery. Three months of hot flashes and headaches start.

November 2011- I have surgery to remove my fibroid and SURPRISE the doctor also found endometriosis and a cyst. He removes everything and tells us that we must wait three months before trying to have kids.

February 2012- Still waiting for my period to come back- the three-month dose of Lupron in August really messed with my system. Doctor prescribes Provera (a progesterone) to jump start my cycle again. I take 10 days of Provera and then on the 11th day I get my period!

April 2012- IUI #1- Negative despite great sample from CP.

May 2012- IUI #2- Negative despite great sample from CP. This month makes it two years of TTC.

June 2012- IUI #3- Negative despite great sample from CP. Consult with doctor before move to Chicago and decide to pursue IVF using the ICSI technique. TTC put on hold as we are living in two different states for most of the summer.

October 2012- First consult with new doctor in IL. Ultrasound reveals two new fibroids in my uterus. Bloodwork comes back normal.

November 2012- Saline sonogram shows a normal uterus. Surgery to remove fibroids was cancelled.

December 2012- Find out at IVF consult that my CT clinic never told me that my FSH and AMH numbers are showing possible poor egg quality.

January 2013- One-month Lupron shot in preparation for IVF #1.

February 2013- After two weeks on birth control, I start daily Lupron shots for IVF #1.

March 2013- IVF #1 results in 11 eggs retrieved. Fertilization report shows 6 eggs were mature enough for ICSI, only 3 fertilize. Transfer 1 perfect blastocyst and freeze another. Find out on March 26th that I am actually PREGNANT!!

First Trimester Recap

Bump pictures through Week 19

Second Trimester Recap

Bump pictures from Week 20-28

Third Trimester Recap

Bump pictures from Week 28-39

November 29, 2013- Our beautiful daughter was born!

Our Quest to Complete our Family with Baby #2

December 2014- Saline sonogram shows a normal uterus. On the 31st I start daily Lupron shots prior to FET #1.

February 12, 2015- Transfer a BB frozen embryo from our first IVF cycle.

February 22, 2015- BFP! First beta the following day- 55. Next beta- 132. Third beta- 249.

March 6, 2015- First ultrasound didn't go well; gestational sac measuring four days behind. A week later it was confirmed that I had a non-viable pregnancy. That day I took Misoprostol.

Sept 2015- After waiting for an OK to resume treatment after a CMV infection, I start injections after a few months of birth control. I am slow to respond and only have two mature follicles.

Oct 9 & 10, 2015- Cycle has been transferred to an IUI and I am inseminated. BFN.

Nov 2015- I start the flare or "Schoyer" protocol with Minivelle patches and Ganerelix shots. I head into my RE's office on Day 39 to figure out why I don't have my period and the ultrasound tech says that I have either a cyst or a gestational sac! A home pregnancy test confirms that I am pregnant naturally!

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Third Trimester Recap

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July 15, 2016- Our handsome son was born and our family is now complete!