Today I am full of questions. I think that it is partly because I am still EXHAUSTED from a day of sheet rocking yesterday at a Habitat for Humanity home with coworkers. 8 hours of that can make a girl pretty tired! I think that it also because CP and I put off thinking about future stuff until after the hump of the wedding and honeymoon. Now that they are behind us, there is uncertainty in our lives once more. Or rather self-imposed uncertainty. We both have jobs that we could stay at and a landlord that loves us. However, I am unhappy with my job and we both are unhappy with where we live (me more so than CP).
I just don’t know where to even start. Do I look for jobs in CO? Boston? Abroad? Who wants someone like me with my experience? What am I qualified for? A JD is a general degree and I don’t know that the experiences that I am getting at my current job will be that marketable. What kind of job do I think will make me happy? Is CP going to take the GMATs? With CP thinking that his boss is going to pull him off his current job to have him work from home/ travel, is that going to make CP happy and thus ensure that he wants to stay in MA? Or will he still want to get his MBA? What do our future plans hold for having kids?
I was half expecting to have some of these conversations while on our honeymoon, but CP really didn’t want to talk about them. Which I understand (not wanting to think about real life while on our honeymoon), but it also would have been a nice time to flesh out some plans. Of which we have none.
I get excited for change, but only when I have concrete plans. Uncertainty (especially in a crappy job market) is not my cup of tea.
3 comments:
Sweets and I put a moratorium on big talks like that for one year after our wedding. We put a lot of energy into planning our wedding. And we didn't want to feel pushed into making more big decisions. For us, it made sense to wait that year. To get comfy with married life. To give ourselves a break. Now, we're ready to address some of those outstanding issues. Seems to me that you and CP need to be on the same page when it comes to a time frame to make your big decisions.
Yay Colorado! Move here!
OK, more seriously, I think the first thing you need to figure out is what decisions you want to make, you know? Sit down and figure out what areas of your life need to be talked about, and who has strong feelings about what. And then pace yourselves. No need to try to figure everything out at once.
Sounds like a bit much to be talking about on your honeymoon. I don't blame CP.
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