Non Sequitur Chica: Last bottle

8.07.2014

Last bottle

Yesterday I gave my last bottle of breastmilk to Izzy.

Yes I took a picture of it

I made sure that I gave it to her for her morning bottle so that I would be the person to give her the last bottle of breastmilk.

Yes I took a picture of Izzy drinking it because I am clearly insane

It sounds a little crazy, I know, but stopping before I was completely ready has made me a little weird about the whole thing. Now we move into a few months of expensive formula before switching over to cow's milk.

I am happy that I was able to nurse Izzy for as long as I did. Frankly, I probably would have kept nursing her in the morning and at night for a while if she would have let me. But there are definite positives to having milk-free boobs once again. (I can finally declare my boobs milk-free as of last Weds.) I am doing my best to think about all of the positives, but I am still surprisingly sad about no longer nursing. This is despite the fact that when I am feeding her a bottle, I get to look into her eyes more than I did while she was nursing (big boob problems).

Every once in a while I get a twinge in my boobs but they have deflated as they are supposed to. Now I'm waiting for them to shrink a little (please, please shrink!).

All of my pumping parts, my nursing pillows, lanolin, maternity clothes, nursing clothes, and clothes that Izzy no longer fits into have been boxed up and put into the attic. I hope with all of my heart that I get to use everything up there again.

4 comments:

Gypsy Mama said...: awww I know I'll be a little sad when I wean Paloma. I hope you get to use all your maternity stuff etc. again!; August 7, 2014 at 5:21 PM
Anonymous said...: I'd be the same way. I'm even sad about introducing solids, which we'll do in a couple of weeks. Babies grow so fast!
I hope you get to use all of your baby/maternity things again. I think you will. ;); August 8, 2014 at 8:51 AM
Jessah @ Dreaming of Dimples said...: I hope you get to use it all again as well. Hard closing a chapter and moving onto another. Hope you have a great weekend.; August 8, 2014 at 10:55 AM
Amber said...: It has to be all the harder to accept because it wasn't on your terms. It's okay to be a little sad about that. Izzy is adorable and apparently going to have a strong personality!; August 9, 2014 at 11:46 AM

Infertility Timeline

Trying for Baby #1

May 2010- Stop taking birth control. Figure that it might take 6-10 months to get pregnant. Do not tell friends or family that we are going to start trying to get pregnant.

October 2010- I start charting and taking my temperature every day.

February 2011- Nine months into trying to conceive with no results, I head to my GYN and discuss our next steps.

March 2011- I have a Hysterosalpingogram (HSG) test which came up negative for any problems.

April 2011- CP has a sperm analysis which indicates a lower percentage of "good sperm" than normal.

May 2011- CP heads to the urologist where they don't find anything and has another sperm analysis which indicates an even lower percentage of "good sperm". After a year of trying we are officially infertile.

August 2011- We have our first meeting with a fertility doctor and SURPRISE I have a big fibroid in my uterus. At the end of the month I was injected with a three-month shot of Lupron to shut down my ovaries/drop my estrogen levels to shrink the fibroid before surgery. Three months of hot flashes and headaches start.

November 2011- I have surgery to remove my fibroid and SURPRISE the doctor also found endometriosis and a cyst. He removes everything and tells us that we must wait three months before trying to have kids.

February 2012- Still waiting for my period to come back- the three-month dose of Lupron in August really messed with my system. Doctor prescribes Provera (a progesterone) to jump start my cycle again. I take 10 days of Provera and then on the 11th day I get my period!

April 2012- IUI #1- Negative despite great sample from CP.

May 2012- IUI #2- Negative despite great sample from CP. This month makes it two years of TTC.

June 2012- IUI #3- Negative despite great sample from CP. Consult with doctor before move to Chicago and decide to pursue IVF using the ICSI technique. TTC put on hold as we are living in two different states for most of the summer.

October 2012- First consult with new doctor in IL. Ultrasound reveals two new fibroids in my uterus. Bloodwork comes back normal.

November 2012- Saline sonogram shows a normal uterus. Surgery to remove fibroids was cancelled.

December 2012- Find out at IVF consult that my CT clinic never told me that my FSH and AMH numbers are showing possible poor egg quality.

January 2013- One-month Lupron shot in preparation for IVF #1.

February 2013- After two weeks on birth control, I start daily Lupron shots for IVF #1.

March 2013- IVF #1 results in 11 eggs retrieved. Fertilization report shows 6 eggs were mature enough for ICSI, only 3 fertilize. Transfer 1 perfect blastocyst and freeze another. Find out on March 26th that I am actually PREGNANT!!

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November 29, 2013- Our beautiful daughter was born!

Our Quest to Complete our Family with Baby #2

December 2014- Saline sonogram shows a normal uterus. On the 31st I start daily Lupron shots prior to FET #1.

February 12, 2015- Transfer a BB frozen embryo from our first IVF cycle.

February 22, 2015- BFP! First beta the following day- 55. Next beta- 132. Third beta- 249.

March 6, 2015- First ultrasound didn't go well; gestational sac measuring four days behind. A week later it was confirmed that I had a non-viable pregnancy. That day I took Misoprostol.

Sept 2015- After waiting for an OK to resume treatment after a CMV infection, I start injections after a few months of birth control. I am slow to respond and only have two mature follicles.

Oct 9 & 10, 2015- Cycle has been transferred to an IUI and I am inseminated. BFN.

Nov 2015- I start the flare or "Schoyer" protocol with Minivelle patches and Ganerelix shots. I head into my RE's office on Day 39 to figure out why I don't have my period and the ultrasound tech says that I have either a cyst or a gestational sac! A home pregnancy test confirms that I am pregnant naturally!

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July 15, 2016- Our handsome son was born and our family is now complete!